teaandcrumpets8's Journal

11:19pm: Grad party 1-4 saturday!

COME!

5:07pm: Im back!

10:25pm: It has been removed

12:18am: What I want in life

To never forget the good friends that I have now

not get wrapped up in stupid and meaningless things

have no regrets

worry less

live in the moment more

go out to eat a lot

find out if love is real

eat chocolate covered strawberries

never have to worry about money

never loose my family

do something that inspires other people

never have to run but get that feeling I love after I run all the time

never hurt someone I care about

be proud of myself

Know what I want

Haha, I think that covered it all. A girl can have dreams right?

9:18pm: I saw this on someone elses! I love quizes! TAKE IT!


1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?


Ok so those were all kind of mushy gush so I added some of my own

15. Do you think ill ever get married?
16. Do you think Ill be "successful"
17. What will be my success?
18. Will I get fat when im old?
19. What is my worst quality?
20. my best?!

11:12pm: ya know... I know I told ya'all that this weekend would suck. But im determined to make it not suck.

The potato cannon was a bit lame tonight. It was amusing seeing josh nearly get his head blown off but I was hoping for a giant explosion. Anyway the weekend will only get better...I can feel it.


Dear adventure,
I am looking for you...
Always,
Heather

5:53pm: I was thinking the other day about just how much the human touch is underestimated. I am not talking about awkward hugs, I mean actually touching someone. but not in a sexual way. I hate some hugs. Like when you are forced to hug the grandmother you dont like or hug someone when you dont know them at all.

But when you just play with someones hair, have someone give a back rub, give someone a massage...it just feels so nice.

I have never had sex but I would prefer having my hair played with more than sex. Its so much more caring and gentle. Its like you are a baby all over again. Being taken care of and cuddled.

I like being taken care of. So while Jacquie and I continue to freak people out but playing with each others hair and rubbing each other and everyone looks and us like we are weird...just try it. It feels so good.

10:45pm: HyPerChicka22789: u. me. run this weekend?
heatherkb87: you me yes slow


HAHA . I love it when people motivate me. I need to start running again, Motivate me people!

10:36pm: Chhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanges

9:05pm: Breakfast was wonderful today. I got to know amy better. I really like that girl. There are very few genuinely nice people in this world but I think she may be one of them. And on top of making a new friend the food was delicious. Oh man I would go out to eat for every meal if I could. Id eat breakfast at the Hobbit and lunch at cameos and dinner at montage. Id mix it up every now and then with cool restaurants from the pearl district. Like Oba, that place is good.

On a more serious note, (well kind of) I was watching celebrity fit club, and one of the fat celebrities was arguing about how people should care what people looked like, people can be sexy no matter what. Its all a state of mind. And I began thinking about how shallow I am sometimes and it made me sick.

1:57am: Im so tired but I forgot about the lame pill I have to take and im not allowed to lie down for 30 minutes after taking it. So here I am. Sitting up damn it.

I had lots of fun breaking down boundaries with jeff tonight. yay! I will have to invest in some of his music. Danny Warhols...? I think thats the name of the band. Oh man.

12:46am: A tribute to my awesome russian
buddy


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8:59pm: Last night was so much fun, sarah, farzeen, jacquie and I went to the eastside and had this awesome cajun dinner. Man that was delicious. Getting lost on the shady east side wasnt so delicious but the doors were locked and sarah was swift. We made it out alive.

Then today I hung out at sagen and farzeens and got stuck. We hung around for a bit and then i decided I was going to drive home. Not a good idea so I had to walk God knows how far. But it was far and exceedingly lonely. It was just me and my 50 millions layers walking on the deserted roads. I looked so ridiculous. I had blue mittens on, a pom pom hat, snow pants, sagen's dad's golf shoes on, 4 layers and Farzeens big yellow coat. Anyway I made it home and then realized I should have stayed there because I am so bored now. My family are driving me crazy, I want to hang out with people and I actually want to go running. Gar I hate ice.

Oh well I just downloaded itunes and Im listening to the best song ever. If you can guess what it is then..........

I dunno, ill give you a high five.

7:43pm: Isaac made me this awesome icon. Thanks buddy.

Gah I just cant do my homework. I have done everything possible to avoid working. I went to the gym. Then I straightened my straight hair. Then I went to a potluck. Man that was good. I want to become a.........I wish I knew the word...........someone who knows really good food and wine?

Now Im listening to John Lennon. Here are some awesome lyrics to think about.


Love
John Lennon

Love is real, real is love
Love is feeling, feeling love
Love is wanting to be loved

Love is touch, touch is love
Love is reaching, reaching love
Love is asking to be loved

Love is you
You and me
Love is knowing
We can be

Love is free, free is love
Love is living, living love
Love is needing to be loved


To bad Ive never been in love, and dont plan to be for a while. Its nice to think about though.

10:20pm: 10:04 pm
Bah i dont know what to do about this whole bali thing. I think it would be really fun to go with farzeen, sarah and allison and dress up as princesses and just be crazy and not care but sarah is set on going with a man, which i completly understand. Men are wonderful, and its fun to have someone nice to dance slow dances with.

I have never had a truly wonderful dance. Everytime I have gone with a boy it has been slightly awkward (no offense if i went with you ;) ) Its not that I havent enjoyed the company of the people I have gone with but it has always been a little weird. Going with friends is fun but it can be awkward when everyone around you is making out. Gar i dont know. There are a couple people that I kind of want to ask but I really truly hate awkwardness and I cant stand rejection. So I dont know. Advice anyone? I
say im making this into too big of a deal. I will not give into the peer pressure to ask someone. I should do what my gut tells me. And my gut says have some not school dance fun. ????

10:18pm: Bah i dont know what to do about this whole bali thing. I think it would be really fun to go with farzeen, sarah and allison and dress up as princesses and just be crazy and not care but sarah is set on going with a man, which i completly understand. Men are wonderful, and its fun to have someone nice to dance slow dances with.

I have never had a truly wonderful dance. Everytime I have gone with a boy it has been slightly awkward (no offense if i went with you ;) ) Its not that I havent enjoyed the company of the people I have gone with but it has always been a little weird. Going with friends is fun but it can be awkward when everyone around you is making out. Gar i dont know. There are a couple people that I kind of want to ask but I really truly hate awkwardness and I cant stand rejection. So I dont know. Advice anyone? I
say im making this into too big of a deal. I will not give into the peer pressure to ask someone. I should do what my gut tells me. And my gut says have some not school dance fun. ????